I Tried Being Normal Once, It Didn't Work Out

A soul lost

2010-08-05T00:45:00.003-05:00

Well, I moved into my new house 5 weeks ago. It was all good until tonight. Four weeks ago I got a momma cat and her two kittens from my mom. A picture will follow. I named the kittens Juno and Marrock cause they was brother and sister and took care of eachother. Three weeks ago they got sick, I took them to the vet and they got better. Juno was the one sickest. This week they got sick again. Marrock was the sickest this time. I took them to the vet, spent $125 on meds and tests for them and tonight, about an hour ago, Marrock died. I cried, and William is still crying.

Marrock is the darker of the two kittens. He was barely over a pound when he died. So, I found a shoe box, wrapped him up all gentle like and closed the box. I took him outside and burried him under the pines trees in my back yard.

Relationships..

2010-05-15T19:46:00.003-05:00

It has been over a decade since I have been in a relationship. A serious one anyway. Probablly even longer and then I met someone. His name is Pat and is a tattoo artist. He is 14 years older than me.

We talked for 3 hours on the phone last night and I dont even like phones. We have so much in common. Everything almost, even down to the way we eat M&M's. Neither of us like brussle sprouts, and we both laugh about the same things. We share similar views about politics and religion and everyday life. We both love storms and the simple things in life. He loves kids and don't have a problem with mine. He even wants one of his own.

He said he hoped I was his girlfriend and I said sure. I really want to make this work. This is what he looks like.

Racoon of a Different color

2010-05-15T19:36:00.002-05:00

I have strange critters here. This is a white racoon that makes himseld at home eating my cats food! Still awesome!

Spider Bite

2010-04-19T20:52:00.002-05:00

Ok so sometime Saturday night I got bit by a spider. I don't know what kind or anything like that. All I know is that Sunday I got up and my arm was seeping clear fluid from two tiny holes on my forearm.

The spot is about the size of a dime and itches like hell.

Gross ain't it?

Odd looking Skunk

2010-04-04T01:49:00.003-05:00

So, the other night I was sitting at the table and looked out the door. I thought I saw a strange cat until the critter turned around. It was a skunk, but nto a normal one. This one is mostly white excapt for a bit of black on his legs and his tail is grey. I know the picture is dark but you can still see it is no normal skunk.

Binxie

2010-04-04T01:41:00.004-05:00

Ok so last time i posted pics of my cat he was just a kitten. Now he is two years old and such a cow.. here are some snap shots of him.

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Computer Broke

2010-01-10T17:41:00.001-06:00

Oh, and I havent mentioned it yet but on December 15 my computer decided to go on the fritz, December 20 my internet went down. On december 28th I sent my laptop off to be repaired and on the 29th the internet people made it to fix my net. I haven't got my laptop back so have to borrow my mom's husbands til I get mine back.

My posting will get more frequent but not until my computer is returned, which I am calling on tomorrow.

Resolutions?

2010-01-10T17:37:00.002-06:00

Well, I have ten resolutions for this year, I have only been keeping up with like 3 of them I think.

1. Exercise at least 3 times a week.
2. Lose 20 pounds in 2010
3. Eat better
4. Knit/Crochet one large project a month
5. Knit at least 2 Dishcloths/Washcloths a month
6. Clean house every week
7. Keep up with lesson plans
8. Grade papers on time
9. Focus on Grad School
10. Smile daily

You guess which which ones I am actually sticking to, or at least been able to stick to so far.

Update on My Car

2009-08-01T13:01:00.002-05:00

Ok so the Insurance Claims adjuster came out Friday and looked at my car. He said it would cost about $1189.33 to fix my car. So I am waiting on some guy to call then the claims adjuster will call again and mail me a check so I can fix my car.

On another note, I did get paid on the 30th after being told it would be the 15th before my first check. Woot!

Teenage Drivers...

2009-07-26T00:52:00.002-05:00

Well today had to of been the worst day of my life. Two days ago I purchased a brand new car. A 2009 Toyota Corolla. Today, in town, on the way to get soda's (That were on sale $1 a 2 liter)... some young girl, still with her learners permit decided to turn right. I was behind her, she used her blinker, slowed down at the intersection and began to turn.. about half way into it she changed her mind or something then turned back into traffic and there was a screeching of brakes and tires and a awful scraping sound. I tried to stop and turn away from her reentering traffic but I wasn't fast enough. I couldn't go too far due to traffic passing us in the next lane. My passenger side front fender and bumper now has some brand new scratches and dents in it as well as my headlight bracket is broken. My bumper is also pushed up into the fender a bit.

This was the girl's first time in town driving. Her father told the cop exactly what happened and I told him the same. I literally got sick to my stomach about it. Now I have to wait until Monday to call my insurance agent (who is also the other person's agent) and then wait until Monday or Tuesday afternoon for the police report.

And of course all my mom's husband could say was "you shouldn't have been tailgating." As if I had a choice at a traffic light in bumper to bumper traffic.

Treasure Chest

2009-07-25T10:06:00.003-05:00

This is my treasure chest. It is made completely of ceder by the Amish people. I use it to hold all my knit and crochet notions and needles. It works perfect!

A New Car!

2009-07-25T09:32:00.002-05:00

Yes I have done it, I have got a new car! It is in my name, the insurance is in my name, and everything! Here are pics!

It is a 2009 Toyota Corolla, Metallic Silver, with gray and wood grain interior.

Teaching Certification

2009-07-08T22:40:00.001-05:00

I finally got it in the mail. I finally got my teaching license. It is for one year, in which I have to pass this blasted test that I missed by 3 points last time. I'll find out my second go round on the 14th and am nervous about it.

New Resident

2009-06-30T14:26:00.003-05:00

Well I have a new resident in one of my apple trees. The tree is maybe 40 foot tall and as I was checking out the fruit that was growing, about 5 foot from the ground I saw something. I went inside, got my camera, stood back about 15 feet, zoomed in and snapped a pic.

This is a Mourning Dove sitting on her nest. I didn't get close enough to see if she had eggs since I don't want her to abandon them.

A New Blog

2009-06-24T13:37:00.002-05:00

I have decided to move all my needlework posts to another blog. This one will be for my thoughts, rants and such while my needlework projects can be found at Wynne Crochet Knit Wits

Fingerless gloves (Wristers)

2009-06-21T23:35:00.003-05:00

Here they are finished, forgot to post them, I made two pairs, one for Squishy and one for her grandma.

Puff the Magic Dragon

2009-06-21T23:27:00.002-05:00

Here is my latest project, a wee dragon that I think is adorable. My niece, Katie, wanted me to make her a dragon before she went back to Texas so I made one for her.

Horse Scarf Pattern

2009-06-17T13:07:00.003-05:00

Remember this scarf? I have decided to post the pattern for it.

The following is the chart:

Basically you just follow the chart but doing it double sided is tricky.

Materials needed:

Size 8 (5.0 MM) knitting needles
1 Skein Red Heart Super Saver Burgundy
1 Skein Red Heart Super Saver Gold
(Or two colors of your choice)

CO 28 of both colors, making sure they alternate, Gold, Burgundy, Gold, burgundy

Row 1: K1, P1 (Making sure all Gold stitches are knit and all Burgundy is purl. All purl stitches come out as knit when you turn the project.)This row should start with a Burgundy.

Row 2, 3, 4, 5: Complete as Row 1 starting with the appropriate color that the row starts with

Row 6: Should start with Gold so follow the chart

Continue with chart, each row starts with a knit and ends with a purl. All odd numbered rows should start with Burgundy and all Even numbered rows should start Gold.

On the even rows the white spaces are Gold and dark spaces are burgundy

On the Odd rows the white spaces are Burgundy and dark spaces are Gold.

The pattern is knit long enough for an adult, which is about 5 foot long. To change the direction of the horse just start at the opposite end of the chart as you did when you started. If you want the horse running up the scarf, start with the bottom of the chart, if you want it running down the scarf, start at the top.

I always put five rows between each pattern then I made a checkerboard pattern at both ends and directly in the middle.

BE creative with it and if you have trouble just send me a message.

More Animals!

2009-06-11T18:08:00.002-05:00

Yes I have gone crazy with crocheting animals. Here I have a teddy bear, a wiener dog, a puppy in a sweater, and a lady bug.

Now I am working on a pair of fingerless gloves or wristers, whichever you wish to call them. They are for Squishy, a 10 year old girl.

Dreams

2009-06-11T10:29:00.001-05:00

Yes, here I go again with my dreams.. they are recurring.. the same dream but not the same. Its about relationships, different people, different places but the same thing happens in it.

I'm there, happy as a lark with whichever mate I have in the dream, then all of a sudden, nonchalantly, my mate decides its over, tells me to pack my stuff and leave so he can move his new mate in. Of course I have no place to go, I won't go back to the hell of a home I grew up in so in my dream days pass, my heart is broken as I pack things trying to figure out where I am going to go and he keeps asking if I'm ever going to leave but doesn't understand I have no place to go. The loneliness seeps into my soul ever so quickly.

I believe that I keep having these types of dreams because it is just verifying the fact of my first dream, that I am going to live the rest of my life alone, never to have a mate again.

Binxie's New Spot

2009-06-07T01:35:00.003-05:00

Here is Binxie inside the Cat Food Cabinet. This is the food for the outside cats. He doesn't get the wet food. He loves to be in cabinets and up in high places.. and being in a cabinet up high is the best yet!

Here is Binxie on top of the TV.. well, the cabinet anyway. He discovered this place some days ago and I caught him even posing for the camera! Isn't he just so cute? (And such a Cow!)

Crochet Animals

2009-06-04T12:39:00.002-05:00

So here are the three animals I have left. There is the brown and white wolf, it looks like a bear though, my giraffe, and of course the Siamese kitty. Aren't they just cute?!

le sigh

2009-06-03T21:02:00.002-05:00

Well, I've been working my fingers to the bone crocheting all these cute lil animals. I should have known better than to mention it to anyone because as soon as I get a few done, the asshole decides to give them away without even asking me. I had a wiener dog, a lady bug, a wolf (that looks like a bear), a giraffe, and a Siamese cat.. I'm now down to the wolf, giraffe and cat.. so I didn't get pics of the others but will make them again and takes pics individually..

I'm not letting any more go without a fight til I get a pic.

New Projects

2009-05-28T11:06:00.002-05:00

So, I've already knitted/crocheted several items... scarves, shawls, afghans, hats.. now I am trying my hand at stuffed animals. I found some cute patterns for small animals and when I get the ones done that I like I'll post a pic of all of them together instead of one at a time. So far I have a wolf done and working on a giraffe.. though the wolf looks more like a bear but it is still cute. I'll post the pic probably next week when I get them all done. I'm just using what yarn I have left from previous projects to make these critters.

Knit Hat

2009-05-26T19:16:00.003-05:00

Here is my first attempt at a hat. It has ear flaps and pom poms and of course William wanted it. I got a snap of him wearing it and one of Binxi checking it out.

Betty Boop

2009-05-23T14:16:00.004-05:00

Well, I finally finished the Betty Boop Red Dress Afghan. Total it took me about a month to do. Below is a pic of it completed and JoAnn loved it. Keep in mind it is laid out over a Queen size bed.

Now I can start a new project and I already think I know what it is. Will post pics as I get things completed.

Awards, Corrections, and Furthering Education

2009-05-16T12:15:00.002-05:00

First, there is a correction.. my last post said $670.. I was wrong, it is $761 per class. I start in August.

There are awards to be spoken of, yes, one or two are even mine. First my kids.. Jacob is getting another Letter W award for being top of his class. I got the Deans/Chancellor's Award for Academic Excellence (A 4.0 this past semester).

I also received my Letter of Acceptance to Grad School so start that in August. Woot Woot!

I also have a job interview at the Palestine-Wheatley School District that is 17 miles from where I live. I go Monday and hope I get the job. it pays about $30,000 a year which is low for a teacher but a good starting point.

GRADUATION!

2009-05-12T17:35:00.004-05:00

Yes I finally did it, I graduated College! Finally! It's about damn time too! I have my BSE in Business Technology.

I worked my ass off and finally graduated.. now I have to get a blasted job. And I am also going to go back to school and get another 30 hours of classes to get my MSE. This will take a few more years. Yes I said years because you can't get your MSE all at once. Not while working too. Plus it's about $670 a class and there are 10 classes roughly.

Awards.. but not mine

2009-04-26T20:29:00.002-05:00

Alright, I know I have been slacking on my posts here but whats a girl to do when she is dealing with juvenile delinquents 5 days a week? Yes I am doing my internship at the worst high school in the state. But, on a good note, I only have 7 more days there then I graduate on May 9th. Woot!

As the title of this blog goes, it's about awards. Alas, not my own but those of my spawn. My youngest got an invitation for a summer enrichment camp (That one must be nominated for). The program is designed for Academic Achievers who are well disciplined and eager to learn. It states that "campers will work on higher level thinking strategies and have 4 days of educational fun as they become part of the Royal Court learning the historic game of chess while battling such topics as the history of the game, rules and strategies, knights, castles, and the mystical stories which have surrounded the game for centuries."

I think it is wonderful my 9 year old has been selected for this, but he will not get to participate for two reasons. 1) Its costs $105 for the four days and I don't have it, and 2) his grandfather don't believe in letting him or anyone participate in extracurricular activities.

My eldest, on the other hand, has been invited to attend the 2010 People to People World Leadership Forum in Washington, D.C. Selection for this conference is based on the academic recommendation of valued and respected educators. His was recommended as an outstanding student with high academic standing and promising leadership potential. We will be receiving more information on this in the next few days.

He wont get to attend unless I have my own place by next summer. If I do, then I will make sure I find a way for him to go to it. And I will also make sure my youngest gets to go summer camps as well.

This is all I reallly have to write about. So will try to most more frequently.

Happy Birthday

2009-03-17T20:46:00.003-05:00

So its March 17, 2009. St. Patrick's Day. And yes, it is my birthday. woot! As if I have anything to be excited about. *snorts* Its just another day in this place called hell.

Lets see I got an e-card from my friend Charlie who lives in Alabama and Ms. Oswalt, my clinical adviser sent me a balloon and a gift to the school today. That's the extent of celebrations.

It's Been a While...

2009-03-11T23:21:00.003-05:00

Well, it has been a while since I last wrote, almost two months. But things have been happening and kept me away.

First, I am doing my Internship finally and almost done, have about 6 weeks left. Then I graduate. May 9th I'll have a temporary teaching license.

I've been sending out applications and actually got a response from Blytheville School District. They e-mailed me and asked if I would be interested in an interview, so i e-mailed back and said yes.

But I didn't get to go to it.

Black Roses Red by Alana Grace

2009-01-18T00:04:00.001-06:00

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let the morning light come in and let the darkness fade away

Chorus:
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gone
It's time to let your love rain down on me

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love (x6)

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)

Binxi in the Bowl

2009-01-15T20:13:00.003-06:00

I finally caught the rascal. Ok, so here is the story, the other day I was in the kitchen and Binxi jumped up onto the barstool like he always does when he wants to play. So, I started playing and realized one of his front paws was wet all the way up the leg. He had just come out of the bathroom. SO I figured he was playing in there.

The next morning I got up and took a shower. Afterward, I went to get the kids up before getting dressed. Going back into the bathroom I saw something that I had to get a picture of.

And so I called his name and he looked up. When I asked what he was doing he just meowed as if to say "What? I'm not doing anything." and I just laughed and snapped another picture.

Pink Skull Scarf Pic

2009-01-15T20:02:00.003-06:00

Okay, I promised a pic of the skull scarf so here it is. The lil girl wearing it is called Destany, but her nickname is Squishy. Anyway, she is Samie's daughter, the woman I made the scarf for.

A New Friend

2009-01-09T23:05:00.000-06:00

I met a girl today.. well I met her a few weeks ago but met her face to face today. Her name is Nikki. I liked her the moment I first met her, but after today I love her.

No, not in a lesbian way, but in a sisterly way. In a motherly way. I feel like I was placed in her life to protect her, to be the one she comes to when she just needs someone to understand.

I haven't met many, if any at all, that has made me feel as I do about her, but I promise that she will never hurt again as long as I am around.

Nikki is so sweet, so wonderful, just full of life, though she is my age, maybe a bit younger or older, she is still an innocent. Her soul let me know that she needed protection. She is so fragile, so delicate, but I'll do my best to keep her safe.

In Three Days

2008-12-29T13:59:00.002-06:00

Well, I managed to knit one of my skull and crossbones illusion scarves in only three days when it usually takes a week. Talk about bruised and sore fingers. But, Samie loved it. I didn't get a picture of it because I finished it at about 11:30 p.m. on Christmas Eve. It is hot pink and black.

Right now I am crocheting a Betty Boop Afghan for Joanne. I'm about a 10th of the way done with it but it is coming along nicely. I'll be sure to get a pic when I finish it.

Horse Scarf

2008-12-21T18:18:00.002-06:00

Well, I have finished the scarf finally and yes I even took a pic before I mailed it. It came out rather well save for a few mistakes I didn't notice until it was too late. Anyway, attached is a picture of it.

It is reversible, or Double Knitted, which ever you prefer to call it. The yarn I used was the Red Heart Super Saver Gold and Red Heart Super Saver Burgundy. I couldn't find Maroon, which was originally requested so got as close to it as I could. It still came out very well I think, especially for a design I created myself.

I Forgot

2008-12-12T13:05:00.003-06:00

So I forgot to take a pic of the duck scarves. I didn't finish them til this morning and I was no where near my camera. So just delivered and got $20 for the last one. Now I am working on a horse pattern, but I will post a pic of the pattern.

This is what the end looks like. I also put five ducks up one side, then added a Grid then a straight segment of color then another grid, flipping the duck to go the other direction so that the ducks are going the same direction as they are hanging in front. It is reversible, one side has brown with green ducks and the other side is Green with brown ducks.

One finished..

2008-12-04T19:02:00.001-06:00

Okay, so I finished one of the duck scarves I was to make.. lol but I forgot to take a pic of it. So when I finish the next one, hopefully in a few days will take a pic and post it for others to see.. the first one sucked.. so I only charged $15 for it but the second one will be $20 or $25, probably just $20 since it is Mrs. Eva. But would really like $25 for it.

Almost there...

2008-12-03T11:48:00.002-06:00

Well it is Wednesday.. I am almost done, so very close to finishing. I have finished my 15 page Business Plan but it ended up only 14 pages. I have to wait on a confirmation from the instructor about how I did on it. I have one exam tomorrow then finals next week. I'm only worried about one of them.

I drove to school this morning, just over an hour.. and when I got there I had to turn around and come right back home.. class was canceled. I wasn't very happy but I did get away from home for a few hours even though I was so tired.

I have to study for my exam, and I am so hoping I do better on it than the past two.

Status...

2008-11-24T16:18:00.002-06:00

Status... check... confirmed...

Yeah, so I am one week away from being through with college. Yay! One week of classes left, then two finals and I am finished save for doing my teaching internship in the spring then I graduate in May. Woot! But, this week I am doing some major studying, have to make a study guide over my full Strategic Management book, and I have a 15 page Business Plan to write up and a Online storefront to make for my Global eCommerce class. And have a week to do it in. Actually two weeks but I want it done before thanksgiving break is over with.

I will be so glad when it is over then I can get a job. When I make my first few paychecks I am going to buy me a new car, not a used one but going to the dealership and buying a brand new one in my name.

Don't know what will happen though after I graduate. I mean with Harold. Will he come through like he promised or will I remain here in my own hell just thinking of what could have been? If it is the latter I'm going to save as much money as I can so I can move out on my own with my kids. Hopefully as far from here as possible.

Honey Bun Cake

2008-11-01T22:48:00.000-05:00

Cake:
1 box Yellow Cake Mix
3/4 Cup Oil
1/3 Cup Milk
1 Cup Sour Cream
4 Eggs

Combine and Mix all ingredients well. Grease 9 x 13 pan. Pour half the batter in the pan. Sprinkle 1/2 the Cinnamon Sugar mix over batter. Spoon remaining batter over top. Sprinkle remaining Cinnamon/Sugar mix over top then drag a knife through batter to marbleize. Bake at 350 for 40 to 45 mins ot until toothpick comes out clean.

Cinnamon/Sugar Mix:
1 Cup Brown Sugar 1 Tablespoon Cinnamon - Mix together

Iceing:
2 Cup Powdered Sugar
2 Tablespoons Milk
1 Teaspoon Vanilla
2 Tablespoons Melted Butter

Mix all ingredients well. Spread over cake while still warm.

Happy Halloween

2008-10-31T23:18:00.007-05:00

So here is my constume for this year. It isnt much but I like it, and I love my wings. Just wore some black tights, a long charcoal colored sweater dress and put on the goth wings and viola! You have a costume.

I even wore it to school and got bonus points this morning. I was told though that it made me look fat. I personally dont think so. I'll let you all decide.

So Many Projects, So Little Time

2008-10-13T22:40:00.003-05:00

Well, I know I was going to do a song a day but that didn't pan out.. lol. But I am working on lots of things all at once. People are amazed at how I can even do it.

1. I have school, four classes, and tons of work in them.

2. I am knitting a set of two scarves with ducks. They are double sided, reversible. One side is brown with green ducks and the other side is green with brown ducks. Will post pics when I get time.

3. I am crocheting, yes, i am still working on it, the Hunter and Spring green king size quilt. I have actually asked for some help on it so I can get it done already.

4. I am also knitting another scarf. Remember the Skull Illusion scarf? I'm doing another one, that is shorter, and it is in bright pink and black.

5. My last project is a crocheted Betty Boop Afghan. It is 4 foot by 6 foot roughly. Will post pics of it as well when I get some progress on it.

6. Let's not forget the family.

My knitting and crocheting lets me relax from the trials and tribulations of school and family.

A Song for Today

2008-10-08T11:51:00.002-05:00

Ok so I am going to start finding songs that match my mood each day.. I may miss days but will try to find one suitable as much as I can. So today, the song is Broken, by Lifehouse.

This isn't just about my friend I lost, but for my heart and soul also. He knows who he is. The one Man who knows all of my secrets, even my most shameful, deepest darkest ones.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

A Friend Lost

2008-10-08T07:19:00.003-05:00

I have a friend.. we have been friends for many years.. more than seven, that's a fact. It was the kind of friendship we could just hang out, talk about anything.\

This friend got married a week or so ago, after knowing the woman for about a month or so.. now she is having him get rid of all his friends.

He knows this is wrong, I know he knows it. I don't think this marriage will last. I am hurt over this and I don't see how he can do this with a clear conscious.

I hurt for him and for losing a friend. Maybe he will come around and realize this is wrong.

Pussy Pics

2008-09-22T17:03:00.007-05:00

Pretty is the cream colored one and Frosty is the black frosted one.

This is Skittles, Peaches and Ugly.

The black one is BJ and the one on his belly is Callie.

This is Smudge cooling off.

Callie and Smudge. Callie loves to lick and chew on feet. she also has a 6 on her other side.

Foots by herself.

Foots, Q-Bert, and Ugly

Frosty's head, smudge, Foots, Q-Bert, and Ugly. Yes I named the one in the back ugly because it is so ugly its cute. Plus I couldn't think of another name besides MJ (Matty Junior).

From left to right is Smudge, Foots (cause the three toed paw print on her side), CJ (laying down), Q-Bert (cause his curly q tail), and nosey.

This is Chip.. quite a playful one and an attention whore. Yes that is my ass he is behind and my shirt he is chewing on.

This is Sasha. She is the newest of our bunch. Part Siamese but has the prettiest markings like a real siamese cat. Can't wait until she has kittens.

Christmas in September

2008-09-17T22:08:00.003-05:00

Ok so I got my Christmas already.. amazing how expensive it was but wont be getting anything in December.. here is a pic of both items

They are both sterling silver with 14 kt gold containing green jade stones. They were not cheap. Theses are my Christmas presents early.

Bored... to death

2008-09-16T12:26:00.003-05:00

Here is what bored looks like. This is me waiting the 4 hours between my classes.. I choked down a turkey club sandwich that near cost me $5.. I'll not eat a la cart again.. and it wasn't even that good.

Someone shoot me! I could have at least got laid today but that isn't happening either. I wish the day would end already. I am so tired and have a shitload of work to do, yet can't do it because I don't know what to do.

I am impatiently awaiting a response from my instructor on how I am to go about doing this task. He may not get it until tomorrow. *bangs head on table* I still have an hour and a half before class.

And no there was no point to this post except to show how frigging board I am. Yep, that bored.

Burning Flesh & Nipple Decor

2008-09-15T23:31:00.005-05:00

Ever smell flesh burning? I did tonight. it was my own.

Tonight was making cornbread. Homemade kind with flour, cornmeal and all that. The way we do it is make up the batter, put some oil in a 12" cast iron skillet and warm the oil before putting the batter in

Well when it got done I was pulling it out of the oven, William was in the way so I told him to move and he moves right in front of the counter where I was going to set it, so it was either drop the pan on the floor, wasting the cornbread and splattering hot oil all over me and William or just hold the pan in hopes William would move, well he moved and I spilled hot oil all over my hand and the counter, and the floor, the pot holder slipped and I burned the hell out of both my hands.. my right is the worst with a nickle sized blister among lots of tiny blisters on the pinky side of the hand and the left hand has one small blister and is real red..

But on the good side, I did get a present today. My Charlie made me some beads. I love them, I of course wont put a pic on here of them in use, but will have a pic of them. I do love them!

Aren't they pretty? My favorite colors too, green and purple.

Now its time to sleep.. I tried taking a pic of my hand but the blisters aren't showing up on the cam and my hand just looks red.

Goodnight cruel world and the evil that lies within.

Its been a while

2008-08-23T21:47:00.005-05:00

So its been nearly 2 months since I last posted.. I got lost in this hell called life. Though I have been surprised recently. My mom purchased something for me and it really did surprise me.

This is a .975 sterling silver necklace with 6, count them, 6 Jade stones. Mom held it up and asked if I liked it, i said yes and she got it for me. It wasn't until three hours later that I saw the price and it was $42

4th of July

2008-07-04T00:14:00.002-05:00

Well between my last post and this one, I have lost all my kittens that I had been tending. Porky died three days after the post and Piggy died four days after.

So this the 4th of July. Celebrating the United States independence. 1777 or something like that. History wasn't my best subject. Anyway..

We have company coming over.. the usual crowd that shows up on Sundays and Wednesdays. So this means I'll be the baby sitter for about a dozen kids. Joyful.. will make sure my ipod is charged and will set the kids loose in the back yard. Might make a cooler of drinks up so they dont be running in and out as well, throw some Popsicles in there as well.

Another day in paradise.. *snorts* Wish people would just leave me alone.

Today I did clean up the landfill aka my sons rooms. They had wall to wall, ceiling to floor trash. I got rid of everything except the mega blocks, car set, train set, Thomas trains, linkin logs, and board games. They kept a few other things as well but I did fill up a dumpster with the trash. I saved one container of toys and books the boys have outgrown and will let kids who come over take those things home with them.

Ok I'm tired and still have my room to clean.. damned laundry..

A month...

2008-06-22T00:36:00.002-05:00

Well, its been a month since I have posted.. several things have happened..

I been working like mad on this King Size quilt that I am making.. hardly making progress on it.. but it is coming along. I'll post pics tomorrow probably.

The most important thing is that for the past 2 to 3 weeks I've been tending to some kittens. A week after they were born (6 of them, three orange, two striped, and one peach) the mother disappeared. After the first day.. one had died.. an orange one. We brought the remaining 5 up front where we could keep a better eye on them. Two days later another one (an orange one) disappeared. I had been bottle feeding them three times a day, using a warm wash cloth to wash their faces and eyes. Three days after the second one disappeared I found half of the third orange on the ground across the yard.

From this point I had three left.. the smallest of the whole litter was peaches.. the peach one.. she died three days ago. She was just too small and too weak to make it. I have tired so hard to save these kittens. Yesterday, the fattest of the remaining two lost his eyes. I call him Porky. Both were too infected and I fear the infection has went to his brain. He staggers when he walks, but most of the time he just lays there. I finally got him to eat this morning, and his brother Piggy is the healthiest. This evening, just after dark, I went out to check on them. I found Piggy coming towards me but something was wrong.. he was dragging his hind legs. He was fine three hours earlier. I picked him up and got blood on my hands.. he had two puncture wounds on his back. I think the local Opossum got a hold of him.

So now, after three weeks of tending to these kittens, three weeks of being surrogate mother to them.. I am losing them all. This is yet another way to prove there is no God and that everything I touch and care about turns to shit, dies, or leaves me.

My Colors

2008-05-28T23:48:00.004-05:00

I got my colors on Sunday.. and they was put on my vest yesterday. Ok, your probably wondering what in the Nine Hells of Dante are colors? If your a biker, you would know. If not, then let me explain. Colors are what a patch is called that symbolizes the biker club/group you are in. I am in the End Time Warriors group now. Its a non-denominational religious group for Bikers. The colors are pretty cool as a matter of fact.

This is the back of my vest which shows the colors. Blow is a picture of the front of my vest. I will be adding more later on.

It's pretty cool and will be adding more patches and pins to it later.

The Blame Game

2008-05-19T10:01:00.002-05:00

Saturday we went to Searcy.. for another bike rally thing.. Samie was across the park and had a seizure.. Jacob my son came running to me telling me she had a seizure.. I told Joanne since we were working the food and drink area.. Joann took off and I told mom since she was right there.. that I was going to help.. then I take off running cause I know what to do when someone has a seizure. Cause I have them from time to time.

Well the asshole apparently sees me running and he takes off running too.. a 400+ pound man running.. well yesterday he was hurting in his arm and chest.. said that I almost gave him a heart attack since I didn't come and tell him first what was going on.. he wasn't even fucking around me when it happened.

So last night he calls me into the kitchen, saying it was my fault that he was in pain. Lecturing me on having to tell him everything that happens before I react to it. I'm sick of the shit.

T-Shirt

2008-05-17T20:40:00.004-05:00

So I went to Searcy today.. knowing I'd be bored to shit. So I took my knitting and knitted for who knows how long. But I did get a T-Shirt for being there, they had grey and purple, I chose purple. Here is a full pic of the shirt.

And this is a close up of the insignia on the t-shirt. Don't know why the shirt came out darker lol.

People are not what they seem

2008-05-15T22:50:00.003-05:00

Well.. I learned a hard and hurtful lesson tonight. People are not what they seem. Someone I cared for, actually loved betrayed me tonight. I went out of my way and then some to help him, to be there for him.. to listen, to talk, to be a shoulder to lean on.. but I was not appreciated.

Why is it that when someone gives all of themselves, they get nothing in return except to feel used? I was used and it hurts.. it hurts deep to care so much for someone only to find they could care less for you. It is in my nature to care.. I can't help but to care for those I meet.. I guess that is my achilies heel. My heart is the one thing that can destroy me. If I could cut it out and hide it away someplace I would. But instead I have to live a life of hurt, pain, and constantly getting my heart broke.

I wish it would stop.

Gram's Shawl

2008-05-13T21:36:00.002-05:00

So here is the shawl I made for Charlies Gram. Yes it looks like the one I did before but if you notice, this one is much much bigger. Charlie said Gram's loved it and was surprised that someone could make something her size without actually having to measure her for it. I have a good eye like that.

Right now I have 4 projects in the works. Two scarves.. one is a skull and the other is an alien head. I have an afghan which I posted it previously and now have a throw to do. The throw is in shades of blue using the same pattern as the afghan. I found the softest yarn to use in the prettiest shades of blue as well.

Afghan

2008-05-10T19:44:00.003-05:00

Ok, so here in an afghan I am working on for a very very dear friend. He loves green and this is what I have so far. Yes I know it resembles a turtle but it will look better when done. I really do hope you like it David.

My Only Friend...

2008-04-28T10:46:00.003-05:00

I have a friend and her name is Samie. She is like my only friend here. yes I have friends over the internet but she is my only friend that I can actually spend time with.

She moved here from Arizona just before Christmas of last year and I met her just after. We seem to have a lot in common even though we have had our misunderstandings. But that is what happens with friends. I am glad she is talking to me again. We spent practically the weekend together talking about things but we were with our families. And Tuesday we are going to spend the day together, just she and I.

Since she has been here, it seems everyone she gets around just lectures her about what to do and not to do. I believe she likes me because I listen, she talks about her troubles and I listen without telling her what to do. I relate to her as well, telling of things that happened to me that is similar to what she has gone through. Most people in My family don't realize that sometimes people just need someone to listen to them, to say they understand and are there for them. Instead they think they should tell people what to do and how to do it. Samie and I aren't that way.

Binxi the Cat

2008-04-12T17:28:00.003-05:00

I have a new addition to my family. Ok, so Binxi really has a new addition to his. Binxi is about 8 weeks old and is near solid black except for a bit of white in his ears. His father is a 20 pound male domestic cat and his mother is a small Siamese cat.

At night we put him in a cat carrier so he don't poop all over the house.. or get into things, but is already litter box trained. When I go to bed, I tell him to go to bed and nudge his butt and he goes to his box. I have to leave a light on or he will meow all night.

He has so much character. Ok, the kitten has picked me as its person. I have been claimed. He follows me all around the house, lil bugger can climb up on my queen size bed and stays there while I am on my computer, he sleeps in my chair at the dinner table.. I found that out cause I sat on him today.. he wasn't hurt luckily.

He meows at me when he wants picked up so he can sleep on my chest. And when I am holding him and he wants down he will meow at me again, a different meow and I put him down and oddly I can tell his let me down, I'm hungry, and I have to use the litter box meow, he even has a "pay attention to me" meow.

Now he sleeps in my bed all the time. He stays at my side, in my lap, on my back.. or anywhere else he can attach himself to me at all times possible. I wouldn't trade him for anything.

Welcome to My home Binxi. Just stop clawing my feet when you feel the need to.

Quilt

2008-04-05T12:24:00.002-05:00

Well, I am working on Gram's shawl, its coming along nicely despite getting extra stitches every so often. I should have it done by the end of the weekend.

Monica is working on me a quilt and Charlie sent me a pic of one of the panels. Monica makes it in sections then connects them after they are all done. Here is the pic:

Shawl Modeled

2008-04-03T17:10:00.004-05:00

Here I am again.. proud of myself. The shawl was delivered and I am adding pics of Monica wearing the shawl. I knew I should have made it bigger.

And here is a pic of Monica's mom wearing it. She wants one too so I have started on it.

One World

2008-04-02T23:36:00.002-05:00

Ok, so I was listening to my ipod nano that I got the other day and heard a song by Celtic Woman. It is called One World and I really like it. Here are the lyrics.

I hear a baby crying
A sad sound, a loney sound
I want to take her in my arms
And then I dry away all her tears

I see a boy, who's frightened
A young boy, with old eyes
I long to say 'You're welcome here,
You can be happy now that you're warm'

We're all a part of one world
We all can share the same dream
And if you just reach out to me
Then you will find deep down inside
I'm just like you

Loud voices raised in anger
Speak harsh words, such cruel words
Why do they speak so selfishly
When we have got so much we can share?

So let your hearts be open
And reach out with all your love
There are no strangers now
They are our brothers now
And we are one

We're all a part of one world
We all can share the same dream
And if you just reach out to me
Then will find deep down inside
I'm just like you

We're all a part of one world
We all can share the same dream
And if you just reach out to me
Then will find deep down inside
I'm just like you

I'm just like you

Hunger Subsided

2008-03-23T17:47:00.002-05:00

The blade's hunger did not get quenched. It went hungry for one more night. It wanted so bad to feed but the flesh refused to give of its self. The flesh won this battle against the cold hard steel. Soft tender flesh, smooth as silk, was stronger than the steel, stronger than the sharpness of the blade. It has overcome this night. And for that I am grateful.

Dying Soul

2008-03-22T19:18:00.002-05:00

My soul is dying... It's ripped apart.
I gave of myself... All of my heart.

I was told... It's alright,
But my heart... no longer wants to fight.

I try not to cry... I try to hold on,
Why in the hell.. does it take so long?

I don't heal.. I always feel pain,
When it disappears.. it comes right back again.

I know this doesn't make sense to you, but it does to me. To be told by three men, whom I hold dear that they love me, they need me, they want to spend their lives with me. They know I see them only as close friends, but they still spoke there feelings.

And the one man I do love, the one that has had my heart for nearly 11 years seems to have trouble loving me, or at least expressing his love.

This pain I feel inside my heart and soul is the worst kind of pain. It is worse than any physical pain I could suffer.

I see a blade there, on my desk. I keep it to cut things with, like the newspaper off the edges of puzzles after I glue them, or yarn that has tangled up. It seems to call for a new taste, for one it hasn't had in many years. It no longer longs for the taste of paper or string, foam or plastic... it calls for the coppery, bitter taste of warm blood. Of the flesh that covers a week, helpless soul.

The smooth silver blade calls to me, to hold and caress it with printed finger tips.. its sharp edge longs to graze across the unmarred flesh of area's unseen by those near. To coax forth the small trickle of crimson over alabaster flesh.

Only the blade has the power to draw forth the very life from this shell. But it wont take it completely. No.. the blade only wants to cause that slight sting, that minute cut against flesh to remind it that it is still alive. To tell the flesh that it can stop the pain within just for a short time. Yes, it has the power, but does the flesh have the will, the strength to give the blade what it wants?

Shawl Complete

2008-03-20T02:35:00.003-05:00

I finally finished it. I thought I had 3 days ago but.. It was too small. So I did 6 more repeats (would have done 10 but was running out of yarn), and here it is. I do hope Monica likes it. The color of yarn I used is called Blueberry Pie. I used 2.5 skeins. It ended up being about 610 yards of yarn, give or take a few yards.

Application For Scarf, Shawl, Knitting, etc..

2008-03-18T21:29:00.002-05:00

Ok, so if anyone wants to place an order for a hand knitted project, fill out the following application and send it to junovolsung@hotmail.com with "Knitting Order" in the subject line:

Name:
E-mail:
Item:
Colors:
Pattern Location:
Any other specifics:

Keep in mind if the pattern is on the internet and is free to access, send me the link, if not, I'll need a copy of the pattern sent to me and I will see if I can knit it.

I will contact you asap whether or not if I can in fact knit the item, with the price, and an estimated time line of when it will be completed.

New College Mascot: From Indians to Wolves

2008-03-14T19:26:00.009-05:00

Alright, so since the stone age my State University has been the ASU Indians. Ok so not since the stone age but since like forever. This year the Indians have retired and we are now the Red Wolves.

Our Old Identity was as such:

Our new identity looks as such:

I can handle being the Red Wolves. I love Wolves after all. But come on, who drew the wolf? It looks more like a Fox than a Wolf. And, what is the deal with the white lines coming out of it's eyes? Maybe in another 50 years they will decide to redraw the wolf to look like an actual Wolf.

I do have to admit, it does look a lot better than the old sigil.

This is my rant for the day.

Too Much Work, So Little Time

2008-03-13T23:56:00.002-05:00

Don't you hate when that happens? When you have so much work to do and so little time to do it in? I sure as hell do. I have deadlines to meet, assignments to complete, people to spend time with, projects to complete.. and don't have enough time for it all it seems.

Of course my school work comes first and foremost. I have assignments do tomorrow, a Final Exam to start on, two chapters in Finance to figure out by the 25th, and two study guides to complete by the 25th. These I must do before anything else.

I also have a Web Site to finish (Sorry Charlie), and I promise I will get it done before summer hits. I have several scarves to knit and a shawl to finish as well. I do those when I need a break from studying. Usually my breaks last way too long though.

As for people.. I need to spend time with David and Charlie.. online of course. And then there is Nad, who wants me to come by so he can spend time with me. yeah we all know what he wants. And I still have to make time for myself, my kids, my family and various other people who wander into my life two days a week.

I need a vacation. I wont have much of a summer this year, I have to take two classes and I am also being forced to spend a weekend with 6 members of my family, cooped up in a small camper trailer for three days and two nights. The classes I can handle but the family I cant. Hopefully my class will interfere with me having to go with them that weekend. I am really really hoping it will anyway.

Its midnight so I need sleep, have to get up early, take the kids to school and then come home and try to do my work that is due by midnight.

Orders to be taken...

2008-03-12T23:20:00.002-05:00

Alright, I've been working my fingers to the bone.. ok maybe nnot to the bone but the first few layers of skin cells, but I have been knitting scarves and shawls.

I have decided that if anyone wants a Skull & Crossbone scarf or an Alien Head scarf (picture to come soon), I will take payments of $20 for them. If you wish something else knitted, just let me know what you want, what colors you want it in and if I can find a pattern for it, I'll see if I can do it then contact you with a price. Yes I know yarn is cheap, but time and shipping isn't. Plus these items are hand made, not something a factory machine spit out in a few minutes.

I will soon be posting a pic of a triangular shawl I am knitting for a woman.

Yes, I expect payment before delivery. I will supply pics as I make progress on the order so you know I'm not stiffing you on it.

Hope to get some orders soon. (Knitting is my form of stress relief since I cant get laid enough to release stress.)

First Knitting Project Done

2008-03-10T10:19:00.004-05:00

Well, I finally finished the scarf. Its my first of 6. After two long weeks, (though I finished it one day shy of two weeks), I think I did well. It only has 2 flaws.. one side is longer than the other and I knitted a stitch that should have been purled.

Here is a few pics. This is a far away shot

And here is a close up.

I am making a red and black one now and a shawl for Charlie and his mom.

Almost Done

2008-03-03T09:17:00.002-06:00

Ok, so I have been working on this scarf for a week now. I ran into a few problems. From the start I kept losing stitches or gaining stitches so that was a full day of goofing around on it trying to figure it out. Then, yesterday, I had to take out 6 inches of the blasted thing. Night before last I stayed up working on it, I was on the fourth repeat where I had to flip the instructions over and start from the bottom up, I didn't realize I had to invert the lines for each color, and so I vigorously worked on half a foot only to notice yesterday morning that the design was on the wrong side. I spent all day yesterday trying to figure out how to fix this.

I did manage to figure it out and now only have about two more foot to go. I'll work on it and hopefully finish it up by tomorrow or Wednesday. I can't wait to be done with it.

I also have to find some nice purple yarn, lightweight, to make a shawl for my friend's mom. I'll work on it while I work on other scarves. This way I don't get bored to shit working on scarves all the time. And I still need to get some red, blue, and green yarn. I don't think I will do the blue and green scarf. I'll change green to a different color.

Today though, at least this morning, I have to study for a big exam I have tomorrow. I'm printing out all my materials right now while I am blogging. Woot for multi-tasking. My exam is in my Exceptional Students in the Regular Classroom class. It's not a bad course.

Progress on my First Scarf

2008-02-26T22:28:00.004-06:00

Ok so I've been working a few days on this scarf. It's the first time I have knitted anything that wasnt a potholder (And that was when I was 8 or 9). I have a foot of it done and have 5 more to do, here is what it looks like so far.

Here is the scarf with a straight on view.

And here it is when looking at it from an angle.

I know it's dark but what do you expect when lighting sucks at 10:40 p.m? I have 4 more to make of the skull and crossbones and found an awesome alien head one I am going to do for myself.

Knitting...

2008-02-25T21:21:00.002-06:00

Alright, so I'm 30 years old and I've started knitting. I actually learned how when I was 7, mom taught me. My dearest Friend in Jersey sent me a link to a scarf he wanted, asked if I could do it. It is called the "Pirate Illusion Scarf". I looked it over, printed out the pattern and instructions and today I started on it.

After getting about two inches done I'd realized I had too many stitches somehow, not enough stitches somehow or just dropped stitches. So I had to pull it all apart and start over. I've got nearly 4 inches of it done and its actually coming out pretty neat. I'm doing this one in black and green for my Marrock. He has a friend he wants a Black and Red one for. And I have two other friends who want one. Dave wants his to be Dark Blue and Green and Charlie wants one as well, Red and black also. Seems I'm going to be busy busy. At least they will have them for next year.

Marrock wants me to take a pic of me wearing only the scarf. *grins* Can't wait to finish it, Maybe I'll do all of them that way and post it.

Well, back to the grindstone.. err.. knitting needles.

caio

Chaos and More...

2008-02-22T08:12:00.003-06:00

Alright, I've had a busy month since the .. 14th, I believe was the last time I posted. I'm not an avid blogger. I'm too fucking busy with more important things to worry with this.

Things have been chaotic for me. Yep, thats nothing new, but it's been even more so as of late, and it's rather refreshing. I don't know what it is about chaos but I enjoy it. I can't seem to function without it.

I've had a ton of assignments to do. Papers to write, tests to take, homework, study guides, notes.. the list goes on. Last night I managed to know out four big things. I got a 9 page study guide filled out, printed out my PowerPoint slides for that same class, I submitted a web page I developed for a class. Ok, so I submitted three web pages, I am sure my teacher will like one of them. Ahh yes, I almost forgot. I also watched nine 3 minute videos and wrote a paper on them.

Today I have to take a test online, I have until 5:00 p.m. CST to submit it. It consists of two (2) essay questions and both have to be a page long. I have one other exam online but it is not due until March 1st. I may go ahead and do it today as well if I have time so I don't have to worry about it anymore.

Well, I best get busy on my exam. I don't want to but I need to. I also have an in class exam next Thursday in Business Finance. We get to have a cheat sheet and a formula sheet on it. That will help if I ever get around to making the sheets up.

Zen and Life

2008-02-14T22:11:00.002-06:00

Well, I have decided to try and start studying Zen. Yes I know, whats a freak like me doing something like that for? Well it's simple actually. I have nothing but chaos in my life. I need something calming since I have no meds for my bi-polar. Plus it might be fun to meditate and do nothing for a while. It will really be fun to let the asshole catch me meditating and him freak out over it.

Life... well lets see.. it still sucks. My friends from Virgina are getting divorced. But I'm still in contact with David. Melinda left him three days ago and today, of all days, called him wanting him to come sign the divorce papers. She left him for another man after 18 years.

My school seems to be going well. I am student teaching at Cross County High School. My class teacher seems good. The principal scared the shit out of me the first day. And then there is Coach Wade. He is from Texas. They grow them big there and I hope to get a piece of him. Damn he is fine. But who am I kidding, I'm not even close to being on his level, but I can dream.

Things Turning Around..... For Some

2007-12-19T10:33:00.000-06:00

I have a friend in Virginia.. well two friends, a married couple.. this is not a good time for them. They are having financial troubles during the holiday season and I have tried to help as much as I can. I even sent money for them to get the meds they need this past week. Mel was ready to give up, she was going to stop even bothering with anything at all.. but today she messaged me.. telling the most awesome thing had happened, a friend of hers brought them presents and cards, within the cards was money that was well needed. $150 was in the cards.

I kept telling her that things would get better, she just needed patience. Noone believes me though, am just a crazy woman. ~shrugs~ I dont want to brag but I did tell her I would make sure things went good. My "gifts" went to work for her.. perhaps that had something to do with her friend bringing the money and gifts.. perhaps it was just coincidence. Who knows. But I am glad Mel and David are doing better now.

Another One Bites The Dust

2007-12-18T00:08:00.000-06:00

Well, Harold didn't get the job so I am not moving. They say 3rd time is the charm.. well this is the 5th that i've tried getting out of here. Oh well, such is the life of me.

On a good note.. I did pass all my classes. I had 1 A and 2 B's. I'm happy with it. Woot! cant wait, one more year and I will be done with College.

Possible Good News

2007-10-28T21:09:00.000-05:00

Well, Harold goes on Thursday to Slidell, LA for a face to face interview about a job. If he gets it, thanks to me writing his biographies and crap they were wanting from him, he will be moving there and hopefully the boys and I will be going during Christmas break.

I hope he dont forget about us. Though knowing my luck... well I wont say it but we all know my luck...

A bad week..

2007-10-12T16:51:00.001-05:00

Today I feel like crap.. I'm 30 years old and think I'm going through "The Change" early....

I've been so tired this past week... despite how much I have rested.. I dont know whats wrong with me...

I'm so stressed.. I have a presentation to do, a paper to write.. a test that I failed.. a lesson plan.. frameworks.. it never ends.. just when I start on it something else has to be done or I'm wanted elsewhere..

I need a vacation.. one away from everyone I know.. ok maybe not everyone.. I'd take Harold with me.. and us go someplace neither of us has ever been and just stay for a month.. but then that wouldn't be long enough.. It wont happen though.. not in this lifetime

Today....

2007-10-05T21:50:00.000-05:00

It sucks.. I feel like shit.. lonely.. PMS perhaps ~Laughs~ Blame it on that...

I have no clue why I started this.. bored I suppose.. not like I have a ton of work to do before Tuesday.. 2 paper and study for a big exam.. blech.. whatever...